wake up

啊。 压力真重啊。 今天拿回了华文考卷。简直发疯了。今年的华文一直不及格。 看到卷子有着深厚的怨恨。): . 去死吧卷子。令我越来越讨厌你了。这样如何考试啊 ！！！！！！！

): 若不把华文搞好，我看我真的是死路一条了。): 华文和英文都不好如何达到我的目标啊。 ):

伤心死了。我看我真的得努力了。

真不习惯中四的生活，即忙碌又非常有压力。好啦，我看我还是别碎碎念了。

我的A2 还有可能吗？ 。): 。

不过拿回了poa的考卷。哈哈，至少可以把我的分数拉起来。 :) 开心死了。

真希望明天是星期六。。。。。 一想到补习和钢琴课就感到十分纳闷。。。为何我这么忙呵。。

ok. anyways i realize when i do typing for chinese i am real slow . and freaking hell

i am still upset over my asshole chinese marks i got .(okay speed typo-ing i got to revise my poa and get a piece of chinese work done ) freaking much . i wonder why was Alessia so free when she was having o levels. anyways i have been procrastinating away . and i think its better to wake up now . and come to realize chinese o levels is just like 2 months away? . exactly two months i guess . freak i am starting to panic and think what should i do to this chinese .

okay . shall get off the computer and dine and study .

crazy life . full of studies. better work hard than regretting later i guess.

and oh man ... i feel like shopping .can't wait for swimming date this saturday . hopefully it turns out fabulously well , and what should i fill in for my class tee's ____ ? . HAHA .

대박 ! sounds great yeah? .

hummmmmmms ......

chinese ?

华语O 水准离我已经不远了。。。 而我的程度似乎已退步了许多。 真是懊恼啊。

今天难得出门到了乌街路去了。 哈哈心里总想这我的钱包。 越想越开心。

于是一大清早我和一家人到了庙去。 平静的环境令人感到非常舒适。 ;)

而且庙外的一颗莲花盛开的非常漂亮， 而热爱花儿的妈妈当起了我的模特儿， 拍出了花的美丽。

:) 改天我才放上部落格吧 。到了乌街路一心想着我的钱包， 一边想着该买什么礼物给妹妹。

哈。猜猜我买了什么吧。。。。。。。。。 当妈妈在看床单时。 啊。 维尼熊的毛巾令我心痒痒。哈哈。所以便买了毛巾给她。伤心地是我的钱包以卖完了。 ): . 差点发疯。。。 嗨。。。

但店员却要了我的联络号码。。一有货会通知我。。 ); 希望有啦！ 。 我为了一个钱包去那么远的地方。。 （哇。。很闷对不对？） 。。。 真不习惯用华语来写部落格。。

之后买了一个冰淇淋来哄自己。 哇，巧克力真好吃。。

在回家的路途。。。我一直想着钱包。。。。 ): . 真是时候换一个钱包了。。

lol 我为了一个钱包感到伤心。。。 哈哈。在阅读的人一定觉得我疯了吧。

好啦。 我的故事应该结束了。 哈哈哈。

＊嗨。＊ 明天又是一个新的星期。。。 真不想上学。): 。 没关系，开在一个乐观的角度。假期即将来令了。 :) . 抱着一个迫不及待的心情迎接一个讨人厌的星期一。。。。

忙碌的行程又要开始了。。。

掰掰！

when life throws you a lemon. make lemonade out of it .

OH MY MAMA . look kikwang's hot . but i don't like the pictures whereby he is half naked

i think it looks ugly.. .... erms. anyways he is hot and cute :) . mesmerized by his smile *.*

physics test down and two are coming up this friday . hey come to think of it . i just remember its Alessia's last day of examinations. *good luck yeobo*

and gosh . i lost my one mark so easily to the physics paper this morning . what a waste...

and i was trying to draw this 2 marks circuit . and ... i almost got it correct like what the hell.

but its still byebye to that two marks ): . goodness me what a waste .

this week passed very quickly .. how i wish it pass by so fast every week .

i can't wait to head to town this weekend. to get my wallet. please darling wait for me ok. :D .KEKE .

some pictures from the other day's investiture . . i know i look horribly insane in a lot of picture . its the fun that counts :) .

and oh my god . my blue and pink braces look .... pretty horrible. alternate somemore .

gosh should have thought twice man seriously . now i can't wait to get rid of these colours.

): .

my love-able friends . headed to lot 1 as no aep today and hell loads . really funny .

these girls are insane . but thankfully they are there to accompany me . i feel so *gandong* haha

we all have many friends everywhere . but only after a period of time . then you will realise who is good and who is not . and i definitely know that my mrs kimyunyong will not dumped me alone :D (bias lo she. only come meeting after seeing my message that .... )

haha . but i managed to met her for 5 minutes yesterday at yewtee point and we witnessed an accident and so epic got aunties taking photo of the bus and the van. thankfully no one injured. if not it will be horrible . and she told me that if we take picture and send to wan bao got 50 bucks haha . obviously i did not take la . :D

okay 3 more minutes to tuition... erhs... *dread to go... but i have to for the sake of my...maths test .* freaking much . my results are dropping ... -.-'' . ): . HORID much ...

okay end here .

i hate people who act .

" i am waiting for .... my life to be back . i want to smile truly AGAIN "

"That name I loved
Became too distant as I went out to call it
I now write that name down
I'm on the verge of tears
I want to hide within myself" - the name i loved - SHINee

Happy belated birthday changmin

"i know how hard it is to act like you are happy... but in fact it feel so terrible "

" I believed in eternity, I can’t easily forget about you who made up my life.
But as time flows, as if I’m reading an old diary, I’ll smile for a moment and pass it off…
Will I be able to live again reminiscing, thinking tha it was just a momentary fever. " - Shim changmin confession

rants

i have this friend X. whose boyfriend is Y . and my dear friend X went through tough and sweet times with me . all awhile we were on good terms until . she met Y and slowly i don't know what have happen to this trustable friendship . it became bitter and bitter. and only during cca i can talk . to her . and not just talk i can feel that wow the friend is back . and after time passes.

she ain't there for me anymore . even when i have something happen . all i can do is complain . swear . curse and complain non stop to other friends . all i can do is close one eye . and move on with life . until i really feel like exploding . i seriously curse like mad . let's get it clear. i am not jealous . i am just mad . how can he drag you here and there and you still can give in to him? .

how can i be not mad at you. when will you ever understand how i feel .dear X. how can i hate and love you like now?. when will you stop hurting me . whatever it is . I AM DAMN UPSET AND MAD @ YOU . I AM AFRAID I WILL JUST KILL MYSELF ONE DAY -.-'''. (rubbish? )

I AM PSYCO NOW . )': . how can Y do that do X . . GEEES .and you do this to me...it ain't something i knew that it will be coming . ):

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updating some belated pictures. :) .

just some. i have plenty actually. especially my pictures with Mrskimyunyong . at vivocity the other day ... like years ago.. haha . since she have already updated i should save them when i touches the computer ... so for now some pictures with my crazy friends who go crazy with me everyday . :) nice friends :D

i really like the polaroids. by chewsihui a lot a lot. maybe i should get one and take with my alessia as well. KEKE . see how behsssss .

& this ... my fat legs ... ... pictures from jingyi's house steamboat ...

okays back to life . this week i am studying for 6 days . insane much .. five days of studying and one day of scouts .. ): . friday was cca day .. rehearsing for founders' day and as i listen to the message ... *think deep* maybe i should message my overseas scouts friends . happy founders day . HAHA . yesterday's meeting .. is ... waste of time for the morning few hours. ..

but at night was the sec1 scouts investiture *clapclap*

gees. they don't look like they like me -.-''''...... okay . i know i am antisocial . (will i go back to scouts? ) hopefully i will pass my first class soon . left only three tests.. everytime i get my scouts standard . i will feel so pleased :D . KEKEKE

but thanks to yesterday i managed to have a great bond with my girlfriends ...

(we fight we break up we kiss we make up ) *i am no lesbian* ;)

and i really dislike hypocrite and people whom act like we are close. asshole ? .

whatever it is . i know who is true and who is not :) .

and i have really spend too much time on studying but like procrastinating everytime .. *sighs*

tests every week and piano exam........... :/ gees i really odd to stop complaining .... :/

okays shall update my pictures from yesterday another time ;)

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OK. KO.

blunt , crude , naive , silly , emotion-less , mood swing , crazy , stupid , ? anymore.
up till now i think only these words can describe me .

i had so much fun starting from friday . :) . headed over to peiling house . and she taught me mahjong and her mummy cooked us yummy chicken rice and it was real good . and took polaroid with them . now my heart is being triggered to get an instant camera. OH MAN . geeees . it was so attractive. 心痒痒的哦.... ): okay but i really wanted to stay longer on friday and have fun with my good friends ): . however , my blackberry was down on me that day and it was a software crash ):

so 讨人厌. but anyways its working well now. and i ♥ my blackberry storm . :)

then on saturday night which is yesterday night i headed to jingyi's house to have fun .

it was really a nice and awesome gathering . gossip girls. and jovita play mahjong really super cute keep ahh.. haha .

and today friends came over for steamboat. i think its rather boring i guess.

since my house have no mahjong set..... ): . i also very bored.

and detest my sister for being such an asshole . keep so noisy and act shy while dining .

in future i would rather we go elsewhere and eat . and have fun lo. 扫兴.

but thankfully i get to see alessia . :0 .okay at least thats a good thing .

now looking at my schedule for this coming week, i am starting to panic ...

mon : piano after school

tues : tuition after school

wed : CIP

thurs : piano after school

fri : scouts

AH FREAK .EVERYDAY I HAVE SOMETHING . AND I CAN'T GO HOME EARLY FOR A GOOD SLEEP AND REST. ):

I think i really look like the cat right now . all freak out . and piano's theory coming soon . in march and its so fast...... like in a blink of eye. and i am not prepared yet. test after test . crazy. no breaks no time to even rest. ): . and being a super 'kiasu' girl . i hope to at least score a 9 for o levels.

chiong chiong chiong ah...... dont disappoint myself...

either ways . i got my calling romeo book yesterday . was having some problem for choosing between jodi picoult's psycho book or this love story ... decided not to go for the psycho book.

if not i will really go psycho. HAHA. and now i heard that sex and the city is nice.

maybe i should go for that soon . :) .

this cartoon look so real . totally explains how we feel everyday mans ! how i wish we are having a 5 days break and a 2 days school day . that will be awesome .in life ....i think 90% of the 365 days in a year. we are either working or studying, why is life so difficult . STRESS.

i deserve a good break during the holidays . 1st : pray hard that the asshole jobweek camp will not clash with my shinee concert. and next . i want a good break .

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BOOS. here to do and update . another rather beside week for school ): . although tests are slowly feeling up my schedule. i am already panicking... ought to take some break at least.
okay . my new year holiday is over and its the second day of school reopen after the short paradise i experience . and the upcoming march holidays ... ): . i hope CCA will not occupy it . i want a GOOD BREAK and some dates out :) . obviously i am looking forward to that .


anyways sister ROM was.... excited. although i am not the bride or something as a cousin i was also excited. and when she threw the flowers... my cousin said to me : eh , go pick . then i gave him the what ? face. then i said ... i can't get married yet leh.. if not i will pick . then the adults asked him to pick . HAHA . cute right my lovely cousin . i can't wait for a baby to arrive. (i know its crazy when my pretty cousin is still so young . its okay she can have 10? . just kidding :) )
i can't for the others to marry too... then maybe i will get a chance to pick the flowers when i am older ? HAHA

bright smile on her face. pretty right? . :).

i think the only outfit i love most is my high waist pants. nothing else beats it . i want to wear it over and over again without fail.. HAHA . i missed my minho swimming the other time on the idols sports program ! *grims* .

chip and dale ! . okay this is...............................CHIP cause his nose isn't red and he looks cheeky. haha anyways how to differentiate chip and dale. 1 : chip's nose is black and he only have one tooth and he look cunning. 2. Dale's nose is red and he has two teeth and he looks... silly.

i can't wait for this upcoming weekends i have plenty of program waiting for me... i can say its days full of visitings . fun and laughter . i hope it turns out well . :) . and i can't wait to see my long time no see basement--2 girlfriend HAHA

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

chinese new year is all about. visit. gamble .eat. play.

:). this year. i love new year. 4 days straight of holidays . and although i half skipped my school

on wednesday . .. i still had fun as i went. i think 3/4 of my classmates didn't know that i attended school haha . in the afternoon headed to grandpa's house for reunion lunch .

at night ate at home. . :) . steamboat is awesome...

every year new year is the same . head to granduncle's house and then buffet .

at night headed to maternal side's . and grandpa keep scolding me because of my shirt

he can't stand it being pretty revealing.. ... its just the he didn't know how kiasu am i . HAHA

and went to uncle's house and everyone started gambling. itchy hands.. i wanted to play daidi but no one wants to play with me ): . so ended up playing 21 and in between. won a lot :)

then pop by at cousin's house this morning and had lunch there... home cook food :)

and started playing UNO stack . and next gambling starts.

home and stuck at home now.. thinking about what to get for valentine !!! :)

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have it ever cross your mind that is it worth to trust somebody?

i want to talk so many people .. but out of them. only 5/6 will always be there.

yet things seem to change as we grow.... will you be there when i'm in trouble?

miss school tomorrow